Trippn', Stumblin', Flippn', Fumblin', Sinkn', Crumblin' & Reachn'

Why I'm awake so early on a Sunday morning is because I just spent the past 4 hours on the phone with my friend E.

Friday night I got the bright idea that I'd start drinking at 5pm. Happy Hour. Mojitos.
I was home, drunk by nine. I spoke to my mom - who immediately knew the situation and gave me her infamous drinking and driving lecture. Then I spoke to SK who finally got some sort of closure on some hella drama that happened last time I was in SA. Speaking of SA - yes, I was supposed to go this weekend but (I think) better judgement told me to stick it out some more and make people miss me. I don't think it'll work.
Because games?
Can't we stop playing them?

Saturday I walked to the movie theater. Uhm hmm. It was a gorgeous Fall day out and I wanted to take it in. I saw 'Notes on a Scandal' and can I say; "WOW".
Dame Dench's narration was phenomenal and a little bit funny here and there. I knew what the film was about according to Cate Blanchet's character but had no idea that Dench's part was even more engrossing - WOW, again.
My goal is to see all the films nominated for an Oscar before the award show. (except Pursuit of Happyness)
Next weekend hopefully I'll catch Babel or Volver. Or both?
FYI - the theater had the best red velvet cupcakes ever. I haven't turned on my KitchenAid in a really long time. I miss her.

Walking back home, I popped into my favorite boutique, Flirt. There was nothing special inside, so I wandered to Ahab Bowen - a funky vintage shop. Its always hit or miss with vintage. Yesterday was a hit. I scored a 1960's silver metallic skirt. It is hot.

Later I watched 'Bandidas' - hilarious. I think Penelope Cruz is the cutest of the cutes and Salma Hayek is funny. Together they were great. And I had no idea Steve Zahn was in it - so that was a pleasant funny surprise. I wonder why the film never made it to the theater?

Then I got to drinking, again. It was very last minute with the same Happy Hour crowd - hold up. At Friday's happy hour I was with my departmental coworkers and they invited their old boss. I heard stories of her which made her sound like some badass. Turns out she is. I immediately fell into like with her. When she called me up for some drinks, I said, sure.
TROUBLE.
The girl lives on a trust fund now, meaning unlimited funds and that meant open bar. Literally.
So, I did what you would do and drank. I felt guilty and gave out a whopping $50 tip to the bartender. I never tip that big - but he sure was putting up with a lot that night.

Drinking interrupts my sleep pattern. That is a given. I stumbled into bed around 2:30am - after I made the room stop spinning. Then a couple hours later I awoke from a bad dream and a stopped heart.
I was consumed with the thought that my crush has a girlfriend.
I couldn't shake the feeling...so I called E.
And let me tell you she has done the very same more times to me than I to her. And she lives in California - so her midnight call is my 2AM wake-up. It was about time she woke her ass up at 2AM to talk me from the crazy ledge.

See, I may need to explain. Last time I was in SA, Boy said something to Girl that shook her core. I was puzzled by it. Very puzzled. And almost to tears because of it. Then I shook it off and continued on. I don't like to dwell. Yeah, riiiiiight.
Last night, a dream verified a thought that I had when he first spoke of his news.
Why would he say something like that to me?
WHY?
And the answer was so easy last night - maybe its because he has a girlfriend?!?

E talked me from the ledge and told me I was reaching for something wrong with him.
Why would I do that?
Because all this time I've been on the crush high because I've been falling for him. And now was the time for me to find something wrong because why would I be so lucky.

She may be right. But just in case, we're gonna get Kate* to write up something so the next time I speak to him I can ask him if he has a girlfriend without sounding like some crazy who never thought to ask him before!

Because we need to know, ASAP. Yes - I am falling for him. The Girl Can't Help It.


*Kate is currently working on script for Girl to ask Boy out for the next time she is in town. AIYEE!!!!